Life....

Sometimes life seems to beat you down.  Sometimes you LET life beat you down.  This is what happened to me over the past week.  I let things just beat me down that should not have...  I let them envelope my life so much that it caused me to get sick. 

Last week I mentioned I was carrying hatred in my heart and this manifested into a migraine that lasted nearly 3 days.    I do get migraines but they almost always get better with my medication.  This one did not.  I realized that I had to let my anger go - so I prayed for myself.  I normally do not pray for myself - I find it odd and like I am begging/bartering with God, Mary, Jesus, Saint (insert a name) and I do not like that feeling.  I think that is why I have a hard time with prayer.

But on Friday morning - after spending Thursday in bed and Wednesday in pain - I decided to suck it up and pray.  Guess what it helped.  It helped me let go of some (not all) of my anger towards this person.  It shifted the anger to sadness.  Once some of this anger left me so did my migraine - it was a mild headache after that and I can live with that.